Scribbles.

Ah, I have….

Been wondering all this while, what things that can be done, or would be done through out the day. Feeling anxious and thrilled by anxiety on the coming days, my mind always wandered off to the sky hoping that i can get some ideas on what to do and how it shall be dealt. …Oh wow. Life is keep having ups and downs. Oh how i wish if it was simpler than it looks. But still.. it’s reality and life isn’t totally sweet. Threatening myself to keep up the enthusiasm to keep on trying, i questioned myself a lot of times on why i’m thinking/doing things as right now. Being oblivious to my surroundings, i stared off to the open sky. Seeing birds chirping, hearing crickets and insects doing their nature … is just making me living in a bliss. Taking photograph of what i’m seeing and thinking right now, is just a way to cheer me up. But no… deep down within that cheerful face, lies a face full of lies, hatred, sinister look. Why i wonder, why i’m thinking this? Why would i ever think about it, i do not know. Scourging out the ideas, scourging out the information… i ended up on a roadblock that held me down at times. Trying to ignore, trying to forget.. is just that hard for me. Randomly thoughts popping out of no where while i’m typing this entry. My heartbeats keeps beating at a fast pace, i frown upon myself right here, right now. Will there ever be happiness to this life, i wonder? Will there ever be a happy ending on this sorrowful life? I can’t answer that, no does the one who reads this entry.

I do  know that someday would be a great day that i can finally grasp the answer, or so i always hoped. Looking out at the locks in my head, will it ever be open? Or do i ever need to open it? It never crossed my mind. Ignore ignore ignore, i keep ignoring. Oh god. Oh Almighty god, how beautiful you have created the lives of other people and mine as well. How beautiful you shaped things through out the world. Oh wait, why i typed that? I don’t know why. I will never know why. Forgetful as i am, i’m just typing randomly to fill this entry. Will there be anyone that ever bother to read this post, i wonder. I think not. It’s just a messed up entry that i typed unconsciously. Or so one would think. =)

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