Finally, it’s time.
5 03 2007Currently listening : Avril Lavigne - Get Over It.
Based from nasha page, i sense that she’s completely mad at me (and some other people too, from what i’ve seen it.). The probability of her mad at me is too high for me, and it’s time for me to end it ( I’m sorry khurshid and nazrin, for not following you two to Jonker Walk today, It was this thing that kept me from going out with u guys). I tried to ease it out by playing my online games, but the thought of it never leaves my mind, no matter what. No, i won’t do the things that ‘Dan’ do because of it, so throw that idea out.
Ok, back to the topic. It’s been almost 7 month since both of us break our relationship, and we never talk on IM during that time. She’s quite busy with her study and such, so we only contacted each other sometimes through mail. Then, there was this one day i ask her an opinion/help and it goes ‘BOOM!’. She stopped giving mails to me and later on she post how frustrated she is through her blog. (Oh, She already deleted the post, by this time). I feel guilty about it, and it feels like eating shit, really. I will stay away from her for good. I did IMed her bro during that night, asked how she fares and all and that was it. Thus, from it i came to a final decision. For a starter, i already deleted 3/4 anything that related to her that i saved on my pc, including one of my project (It’s related to her somewhat) that i do since last year. Another 1/4 going to be deleted too later on.
So yeah, i’m totally down rite now. It’s going to take me quite some time (might be years) to get over it.
PS: Life’s totally fucked up from here on. Here’s to hoping that GACC will take my mind off from it. o(.___.;)o
PS1: Been repeating this song for almost 3 hour.
PS2: Let me rot in this hell for a while.
Categories : Life, Personal
